I have been working on an injury that has prevented me from running for about 6 weeks now. Last week I had been able to finally run again and mentally I am ready for it, but as I try to run at the level I was at about 6 weeks ago, my leg doesn’t seem to get the message. I am finding it very frustrating that I am not at the level that I once was a short time ago and I have to keep reminding myself of how the body works and of the steps and levels that need to occur to strengthen that muscle to get back to running full time and full speed again. As I was running this morning and meditating on life and being frustrated with why I am having to go at such a slow pace and slightly favor the weaker leg, I can’t help but draw the parallels. Mentally I am ready, physically I am not. It would seem the other aspects of my life are just the opposite. As I think about the things that I need to do and that I know are right, logically I know what the best things are. The physical things like being married and sharing my life with someone and helping each other with all the responsibilities of being a parent and husband and the new ones to come with being a student again. Physically I am ready for that and I am ok with the idea of it, but as frustrating as it might be I am not sure my heart is ready to run at full speed. As I spend time with some incredible people I have to remind myself that even though it would be convenient… there is some walking that needs to be done before the run.
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I started reading your family blog back in July after our family ran in the 5K for your family. It was an amazing and faith-building experience for us. I don't know if you were ever aware, but during the 5K, a man fell and needed help from the paramedics at the end of the race. That was my husband. Many people completely stopped their race to help us. It was very humbling, and I have been so grateful for their kindness to us, and have always wished I could thank them. At the time, my husband was battling brain cancer. That was the last race he ever ran, as he died 2 months later. I appreciate your faith, strength and courage as I begin this same difficult journey.
Love,
The Hughes Family
I feel like such a weirdo stalker, reading your blog and leaving comments, though you don't know me and I'm not even sure you know my friend who showed me your blog. It might be several degrees of connections. Yet here I am, checking up on you like we're old family friends. Sheesh. Well I hope it's not offensive. I'm just inspired by your strength and insights, and grateful you share them publicly on your blog! Best wishes for great running someday :)
I echo Chelsea's comment 100%! You have a gift with the written word. Don't stop please. Your writings give inspiration, hope, and laughter, in all the right places.
I appreciate very much the thoughts you left on our family blog. It has given me much to think about.
You are right--it is important to endure well. There are many watching to see how we cope with this. oh my, way too many ;) I did decide to keep up with our family blog (and not just hide under a rock--which I would prefer at the moment!) I hope you don't mind that I "stole" the Maxwell quote you left and shared it on my blog!
I am the only young widow with young kids in my ward and stake--I am sure it is the same for you. My husband was a church leader in our ward and stake for about 10 years--so way too many people are watching, and I feel a ton of pressure to handle this perfectly, and I am soooo not!
I know it's like anything else though, we all get better with effort and time.
Thanks for giving me some thoughts to chew for a few days!
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